Daily Prompt – December 13, 2025

I’ve had so many first days it’s hard to pick one to write about. First days make me anxious. Okay, to be fair, many things make me anxious. I digress, First days are full of anticipation and hope. Will I make a good impression? Will I enjoy this experience? For me, its never mattered what the first was, my brain is full of this overthinking storm of worry and hope and fear. Fear and anxiety no matter how hopeful I am about the experience always seem to be the overwhelming factors. Many who know me now, or even might follow any of my online presence may not believe this but I have always struggled to “fit in.” It’s always been a weird battle for me. Wanting to be me but also wanting to be accepted. It took a long time to come to peace with the idea that I could have both, just with the right people. But that feeling still surfaces every time I have a first day at something. The desire to not alienate coworkers or annoy my boss. The fear that my lack of filter will cause problems. The excitement that maybe my classmates will find me interesting and want my help. But also the fear of disappointment if thats all they want when I want friends.

Firsts can be exciting but when your brain perceives all the potential futures before you’ve even begun, they become stressful and overwhelming. I much prefer second days!

Removed Bonus from title as well as the blurb about the reason for the bonus post as its no longer relevant.  All Daily Prompt posts now align with prompt date.